American dream
wondering why and wondering
what’s up
with the negativity
the leaving?
cause
this isn’t the center of the universe..
the city that is..
and it never will be
thankfully
or at least..i hope not
the sky doesn’t fall when you leave
and the city
it isnt everything
and status isn’t necessarily
everything either
..or anything.
for that matter..
i think it’s just your mind..
muddled by the chemicals, car exhaust and pollution,
the bad diets and brainwashing..
among other things.
just because you do what you’re told
and maybe you have some success
doesn’t mean anyone’s gonna know your name
or care about what you do
or what you occupy your time with
unless of course it’s a new device
or mechanism you’ve invented
that somehow drowns out the crying
of your children
or significant other’s bitching..
today, yesterday, tomorrow..everyday..anyday..
so what if you make a little money..
have a family, have a kid..?
a nice house or apartment and some furniture
and then what?
sometimes you can go an entire lifetime without knowing
or having
still lacking..
going without..
finding..or trying to get..
latching onto a piece of..
the “american dream”
and once you grab it…
it’s like you’re chasing fireflies
or watching your kids
with nets and jars at night
and the sight takes you back to a time
when you still had a choice
but over and over and over again..
you keep coming back to this..
this life that you’ve made
that isn’t necessarily stagnant.. but it is
and even tho it seems like
after all you’ve accomplished..there should be an end…
an end that ends in..happiness..?
there isn’t.
and you think again and again and again
and there still..isn’t..
and you’re still unhappy
and you’ll continue to be..
forever..and ever…and ever…..and ever
and over and over and over and over
again..