Nine lives

Ive been trying so hard

My entire life

To kill myself off

Subconsciously

(ive realized)

Ive done everything 

I could think of!

Within reason of course.

I poke and I prod

Still!

To this very day

And i dare.

Test my boundaries

Fuck it

Try me

And what the fuck!?

I’m still god damn here.

I thought cats were pretty lucky

(Are they?)

They have nine lives, Yes.

And here we are 

Trudging…

Reluctantly on..

Thru this life

And beyond and beyond and beyond

And it keeps going

It just keeps going on and on and on..