Catatonia

When you call me up I’ll be ready

Snap to attention

Don’t expect a trumpet

Or a french horn

Not a clap

From the gallery

But there wouldn’t be one of those

Anyway, 

Who do you think you are?

And anyways, would you wanna?

You danced across the room

And it startled me

Catatonic 

I’m in that awkward state I told you about

Hyper sensitive, self conscious 

Afraid to move

I nod in your direction

And through clenched teeth..

“I’m with him”

The silence speaks volumes

I’ve been energetically put in my place

Not by you but her

Eyes wide

Wider than I’ve ever seen

And black. 

I like it

I appreciate you

Let’s jump

So many moments

It’s out. It’s finally out.

You took it in

I brace myself

My work is done here

But really I kinda 

Expected more from you