The night before

The bravado kicks in

Uh oh here we go

Hold that stance baby

For as long as you can

The slipping away

The sense of self

The confidence rising

You’re soaring

Until you’re not

Everything turns to gold

And you wanna touch it

Everything!

Touch Touch Touch

Nothing’s off limits

You broke it

Silly girl

You just can’t help it can you

Go ahead and try

dig your heels in

Deeper

It don’t matter

 

Slam your cards down on the table

HaHa!

Panic later

 

The falling isn’t easy

Don’t wanna get up

This time

Can’t

Stare in meditation

Until you feel nothing

The faded memories

Try to remember

Try to forget

All the wrong turns

Swallow

That are cringe worthy

Swallow it down

The whys and what fors

Swallow it whole

The harping and harping

and harping and harping

The puking it up

No one needs to see you

No one wants to hear it, hon